I am still
fighting with social security, I've had three surgeries in the last
three months, and my depression has taken a wicked hold of me. My
gallbladder somehow got super infected, to the point I was running a
decent fever despite taking a high dose of prescription NSAIDs around
the clock, which should eliminate any normal fevers. I suppose it was
fortune or fate that I happened to be on them, because I was in the
hospital for an unrelated matter, and a nurse completely brushed off my
extreme pain and gave me an over-the-counter medication.
I
might have gotten brain damage if I wasn't on my diclofenac, because
who know how high the fever would have been untreated with me thinking
that the pain was just something I needed to just bear through. I need
to really press charges against Hellmont, this is the second time I have
come from that place suffering physical harm from their lack of care.
My
depression has really kept me from writing on here, and my back pain
from using the computer. The pain has been so severe for several months,
and it won't let up. I am at a loss as to what to do, and to top
everything off my food stamps have gone from a nice $200 which is easy
to work with at grocery stores, to $60. No joke. Seriously. I need to
feed myself on $2 a day. Which means, no more V8, or fruit juices, or
dried fruit-which helps me because of my back, or the organic milk I
like, or a lot of other healthy things that cost a bit more...
Also
it has come to my attention that rape is something that people, all of
whom I have met have been male-with the exception of one female who was a
victim I met five years ago, is not considered a "big deal". People
need to get over it. It's "held high on some stupid pedestal for no
reason where it doesn't belong, it's nothing", said someone in Ungodly
Wrath, the WoW guild on the Stormrage server. He's not the only one who
holds this sentiment, either. It seems a lot of people are just
inconsiderate to the idea that it might actually harm people. That there
are such things as rape victims. They seem to think that every person
who claims it is just some liar or something.
So
because of government and because of these people I am fasting. I will
eat what I can on my foodstamps, and nothing else, unless on occasion
someone chooses to assist the wellfare case that I am. I find it ironic
because my best friend wanted exactly what's happened, the government
not taking care of people. So now I will be eating a caloric intake that
will probably be near starvation, which I've done before, and we will
see how it goes. I hope that all those stupid men out there might
ackowledge that rape happens, and not every girl lies, and maybe the
government can help people afford food.
Oh,
and also, you lose food stamps if you study more than 4 credits of
college. So despite my back problems, even if I took several online
classes, I would lose that little bit of money to eat. Heh.
